For most of my life, I felt like I didn't belong here. I learned how to succeed in the matrix at a young age and excelled at meeting other people's expectations, but despite the external validation, I felt kind of lost. Discontent. Adrift. I was always anxious or depressed, searching for the thing that would make me feel fulfilled, at ease and 'at home.'
I tried and learned many different things and travelled to distant corners of the globe seeking this sense of groundedness and belonging. I had lots of great adventures - but for years, it was elusive.
Becoming a mother was a massive awakening for me. The anxiety and depression crescendoed and were joined by postpartum rage. Depletion and stress impacted every area of my life and every system in my body. I felt so isolated and out of control - desperate to find my ground, and a way out of the chaos.
When turmoil in the outside world reached fever pitch (thank you, global pandemic), I was relieved by the invitation to pause. I turned inward. I got quiet and still. I listened.
As it turns out, what I had been seeking all those years was myself. I realized I had been raised within systems that 1) weren't built for me - and 2) were built to deplete, devalue and distract me.
Nothing was wrong with me, I was simply looking at myself and at life through the wrong lens. I didn't have all of the information I needed, I was totally out of balance and deeply disconnected from the feminine roots of my personal power. I longed to more fully know and trust myself, to anchor in my own frequency and natural rhythms, to feel nourished and worthy and free.
I began to see how my personal healing, self-expression and joy would create a ripple effect, a resonance through which I could connect with others who were finding their way home to themselves, too.
That feeling of peace, presence and purpose? It was within me all along.
The Embodiment Project is a place for you to Remember that you belong to your Self and we belong to each other. The more fully you inhabit your body, the more your unique essence moves through your body, in the here and now, the more deeply connected and wildly free we become.
Welcome! I'm so glad you are here.
Early one morning in the Spring of 2013, I awoke before the sun with three words dancing through my awareness: The Embodiment Project. There was weight to them; I knew they would be of great significance to me. A message arrived with them, a subtle, but profound knowing, that I was not to seek the meaning of these words.
At the right time, it would be clear.
Over the next 10 years, a lifelong relationship with depression and anxiety was intensified by my transition into motherhood. A new (and uncomfortable) companion showed up in the form of rage. Along with guilt and shame, the resentment, victimhood and chronic stress I carried through every day was exhausting and I became severely depleted. I was overwhelmed and confused because I was really grateful for so many things, yet there were moments I wished it would all end.
All the while, these three words lived within me, The Embodiment Project, along with the knowing that their meaning would someday be clear. Insights continued to appear in my most difficult moments. And one day, as I was once again swimming in the dark waters of my suffering, the message came.
I knew I had already been living The Embodiment Project.
It was alive within my journey and had become my Life.
Every single moment of darkness,
every practice and tool that I had relied upon to navigate life's challenges,
every mentor and guide,
every trigger,
every doubt,
every glimmer of hope,
every dream,
every choice I made to keep going.
They were all threads being woven into the tapestry -
the beautiful, soft, ever-adapting fabric of Life -
that held and perpetuated my Soul's unfolding.
The weaving would never be complete.
This tapestry would never be something I could hold and admire.
It would never be seen or experienced by others.
There was only the process.
The inspiration, the doing, the integration.
The ebb and the flow.
The learning and the unlearning.
The constant rhythm of Life, being woven.
is a place for us to weave.
To gather our materials,
to learn and refine how we craft our Lives.
To find companionship and inspiration.
To share stories and wisdom,
to be held in our unraveling,
to unlearn,
to go deeper,
to Remember.
To play. To dance. To celebrate.
Thank you
thank you
thank you
for being here.
Every thread is essential.
Every. Single. One.